#4thPersonProse – Isn’t This How Some Horror Movies Started?…..

How about you stop letting strangers into your house? How about you stop letting friends of friends into your house? How about you stop inviting a kid that NOBODY has ever met before to your niece’s birthday party?
Can’t you see the loose ends that you’re creating? Can’t you see what you’re attracting into your life? D-R-A-M-A. I guess not… because you keep doing it over and over and over again.
Yes, sure, you help out those that are less fortunate than you. Yes, yes sure, it might have been what “she” wanted and what “she” taught you, to help others. Yes, share what fortune you have. But when your own personal safety is in danger, then what??? Your family is likely going to tell you to NOT do it, to NOT risk the danger, to NOT chase the drama.
And then you’ve abandoned your family over your friends, and your family is not there to pick up the pieces from when you fell. You criticize them for not being there for you.
Pretty Fair, right??

Better Late Than Tardy…..

I know, I know, I haven’t been completely up to date on things here, but to be completely honest, nothing is really bothering my mind right now. I mean, there are definitely issues in life and at work, but nothing driving me to vent or push thoughts through on this level. So I apologize that there hasn’t been consistent stuff on here to entertain you or provoke any thought. It’s also going to get worse because it’s now NFL football season.

I will get what I can up on here in due time. It’s also not a coincidence that I haven’t spoken to a few people in quite a long time also (hence the peace of mind at present). Thanks for your support and encouragement, I will see you again soon.

Gracias!

Carpe Diem – Seize the Day

If you really had to choose right now, in some morbid alternative universe, alternate reality, between seeing your child die sooner or later in their life, which one would you choose?
There is no right or wrong answer, but it is pretty cruel. If an archangel gave you an ultimatum that said you will have to watch your child pass away, but it’s your choice to see them pass away earlier or later, which one would you choose? How could you choose?
Ok, but listen… if you choose earlier, sure you have cut off such large potential earlier, but you also don’t have that many memories to bear. If you choose later, you’ll have so many memories that would turn into pain over the loss.
If you choose later, the end may have been closer to them either way, so it might not be that bad. If you choose earlier, there is way much more to live for.
Truthfully, I couldn’t make that choice. That is something that could only be decided in the moment and at that time. We never know what dreams may come. As a good friend Benny quoted Mike Tyson, “We all have a plan until someone comes and punches you in the face.”

#4thPersonProse – Can’t Hold It Back Anymore, Let It Go, Let It Go, Turn Away and Slam the Door……

You say that your posts are your scrapbook, your memories, your narrative. I know that you’re trolling for followers, for likes, and for adulation. But just how much of it is for justification?
You already stole the “Song of the Day” from me, and bastardized it into something it’s not.
But that’s what you do. You beg, borrow, and steal to survive. Survival of the next one, on to the next one. User, abuser, and then cry foul when not everyone is on your side or agrees with you. Or agrees with your hairbrained scams and ideas.
And now I’ve come to the sad sad realization that I’m fighting with someone who is five years younger than me, and more importantly that I really don’t really care.
So I’ll “Let It Go, Let It Go…..” and live a happier, longer life because of it.